Friday, September 28, 2007

Medical Updates - Miri Trip

Last weekend, we were in Miri to bring our baby to see the Taiwanese therapist whom we saw in Bintulu. Again, our baby had three sessions of therapy with him. Our baby kept on crying throughout the sessions. She started to cry even before the therapist massaged her, either because she recognized his voice or she could smell the pungent odour of chinese medicine there. I do not see any differences in her condition at first, but after the third session, again she seems to be able to hold her eye steady for one to two seconds. Now, her eyes seems to be back to jiggling again. Less occasions of holding her eyes steady for awhile, as the gap of the last therapy session becomes larger. Similar case as before. The therapist remarked that her condition seemed better, although I could not see it. He just asked us to continue doing what he did, by massaging her at the base of her skull. I am giving her Cranial Sacral Therapy, as well as massaging her every night. Let's hope her condition will be better soon.

We arrived at Miri Airport on Friday and went back on Sunday. The airport is again a miniature version of Kuching International Airport. I reckoned all airports in Sarawak will end up looking the same as KIA.

We had more fun in Miri compared to Bintulu. For one thing, there were more shops in Miri. And this time, we went with some friends. We stayed in a 3-bedroom executive suite. The place is great. This is the our bedroom and bathroom.

This is the living room with a sofa set and a TV.

There is also the dining area and kitchen with a refrigerator and a microwave.

This is the view from our bedroom.

We had seafood for dinner at a seafood restaurant.

Look at the lobster. It's huge. It's shell has very nice patterns. But we did not order it as it probably costs more than the cash we brought.

Over the 2 nights we were there, we had a variety of dishes. We had crabs.


Crabs fried with egg.

Kam Heong crabs.

Chilli crabs.

Sea clams.


Four-variety vegetables.

This is a picture of bullfrogs in an aquarium. Unfortunately, one of the bull frogs ended up on our dinner table. It tastes like chicken.


Wednesday, September 26, 2007

We Can Only Plan, God Will Decide

The other day, I had some flashback of memories. I recalled the times during the last stage of my pregnancy. How anxious I was at that time for our baby to come out fast. How high my anticipation was for signs of labour to show. How I kept wondering how our baby looked like. Will she look like me? Will she look like my husband?

I remembered saying to my husband that I wished our baby would have large eyes like his and would be tall like him. Then, I asked my husband, do you think our baby will be chubby? My husband jokingly said, how can you expect her to be chubby when both of us are stick figures? From where can she get her chubby genes? Then I remembered answering him, you're so tall but your parents are not. So? Why can't our baby be chubby when we are thin? But at the back of my mind I thought, yes, you're right, we are both thin, so how chubby can our baby get? Then I asked him, both of us have dark skin, so do you think our baby will have dark skin too?

And so, we could only talk about it. We could only imagine how she looked like before she was born. But God will decide everything. Turns out, our baby do not have my husband's big eyes. Turns out, she's not only chubby now, she's VERY CHUBBY. Turns out, she fair. Haha... a total opposite of our imagination. A lot of friends say our baby looks like me. But she's got a lot of my husband's features. Large feet (she probably needs big size shoes next time), tall (I hope she can continue to be tall and not short like me), thick eye brows with a whorl at the end and the exact same hairline.

So, there you go. You can plan, you can imagine but God decides.

Monday, September 24, 2007


I don't want to talk about it. Stupid umbrella! My two fingers were in pain for one whole night!

Thursday, September 20, 2007

I'm Getting Old

I have a sign that old age is catching up. Last weekend, I went to have a haircut. There, I discovered that I had strands of white hair. OMG! Not yet 30 years of age and yet I have white hair.

It's disheartening to see those white strands. I kept staring at them on the mirror reflection, wanting to pull them out but wary that the people at the hair saloon were watching. So, I just kept my hands folded, squirming impatiently in my seat. The moment I got into my car, I started to pull those white strands out one by one. I counted. There were 5 of them altogether.


Monday, September 17, 2007


Not me la!

It's the orange.

Look at the baby orange in the middle. So cute!

Friday, September 14, 2007

Sick and Depressed

Yesterday, I was down with fever, flu, cough and sore throat. It made my day dull and colourless. I felt rather depressed especially when I looked at our baby. Her eyes, which supposedly were better a few weeks back, are jiggling rather fast again. Her eyes starts to cross more prominently. She is still rather sensitive to light. The more I looked at her, the more desperate and helpless I felt. I know I can do nothing to improve her situation right now but feeling helpless isn't helping me to cope. To add to my worries, her other developments are slightly slower due to her eye condition. Tears start to well in my eyes as I looked at her, trying her best to cope with her eye condition on her own. I felt like hugging her tight, to protect her from all harms, as though by hugging her, her Nystagmus will heal. She seems to cope with it quite well. Unlike me, I felt helpless, desperate, down and sick.

During dinner time, I could not eat even though I was very hungry. I could not bring myself to swallow the food in my mouth. It was almost 7 months ago when I first felt this way, unable to swallow the food in my mouth, even though I was hungry. I remembered vividly, the day we discovered that our baby had Nystagmus, how worried we were, how totally crushed we were, how I had sleepless nights after that, how I cried and cried, how I had no appetite to eat, how I frantically search the Internet for answers and how my heart ached and ached till today.

It's been 7 months now. I thought I was able to cope with this. But I was wrong. Day in and day out, my worries wore me down mentally. Will I ever get through this in one piece? Will I be able to accept that, our baby may have Nystagmus for the rest of her life? Will my tears continue to flow freely whenever I think of her future? Will there be a chance that she will be healed?

So many questions but no answers.

Wednesday, September 12, 2007

Free Kids Stuff

I remembered back when I was little, I sometimes secretly buy the RM0.20 junk food from the school canteen. Why the secrecy? That's because my father did not allow me to eat junk food. And so I had to buy them secretly. (I hope my father doesn't read this entry!) Anyway, in these junk food packets, there used to be free stuffs, like small plastic rings, stickers, plastic robots or whatever that appeals to kids. Sometimes, there's even coupons to exchange for stuffs meant to trick us innocent kids into buying more of those unhealthy junk food. Despite the fact that the junk food is unhealthy, being kids, we just had to have a taste of it, not so much of the junk food, but more of the fun in getting the free stuffs that came together in the junk food packets. Then, there's also free ice-creams, where random ice-cream sticks will have stamps on it, allowing you to claim for another free ice-cream and stuffs like that.

Well, those were the days. These days, I seem to think that those things do not exist anymore. I thought that those companies selling junk food and ice-creams do not practise the same marketing strategy anymore to increase their sales. Junk food and ice-creams that I have consumed over the last 10 years do not seem to give any free kids stuffs anymore. That was my thought, until last Friday, I had an ice-cream to soothe myself in the heat of the day and I got this.

Hey, it says free 1 ice-cream! I wonder if I really can exchange it with a free ice-cream. Makes me feel excited like a 7-year old kid. Hehe...

Monday, September 10, 2007

Medical Updates - Bintulu Trip

A few weeks ago, my husband and I were in Bintulu. We brought our baby there to visit a Taiwanese therapist. This therapist was a friend of my husband's friend. Coincidently, when my husband's friend heard of our baby's condition, he suggested that we should see his friend, the Taiwanese therapist, who periodically visits Sabah and Sarawak and operates a few clinics in this 2 states.

And so we went. Our baby had 3 sessions with him. From my observation, his techniques are rather similar to that of the osteopath we saw in Singapore. However, he was more "rough" and daring in his musculo-skeletal manipulation. He asks us not to worry as he knows what he is doing. So, we just stood by to observe and hear our baby cry and cry and cry.

According to the therapist, he said that our baby's top of the spine (cervical spine), her C1 and C2 seems to be pressing on her nerves, causing the flow to the optic nerves to be disrupted and thus, causing her Nystagmus. His explanation very much concurs with the medical articles/journals which I found on the Internet. He taught us to massage just below our baby's skull and let her lie down on her back more often, supported by a pillow, so that her head is slightly bent upwards. We must also prevent her from arching herself backwards, as this cause her C1/C2 to press on her nerves further.

Since then, I have been massaging our baby's neck area everyday. I'm not sure if I'm paranoid or what but since the day we came back from Bintulu, it seems that our baby's Nystagmus really has improved a little. The jigglings have seemed to slow down and she seems to be able to hold her eyes steady for a second or two at times. Apart from that, she seems to be able to look around and touch things when she is on her baby walker, something that she does not do before the Bintulu trip. When she came back from Bintulu, we seemed to sense a difference in the way she interacts with her surroundings.

Although she still squints at times and is still sensitive to light, we are inclined to think that her Nystagmus does indeed improved a little. We will continue to observe her for a longer period of time before making a definite conclusion.

Here are some pictures from Bintulu. This is the Bintulu Airport, a smaller replica of the Kuching International Airport.

This is Bintulu town centre.

When we were there, there was a kite festival on. It was held at the runway of the old Bintulu airport.

Really nice kites!

Thursday, September 6, 2007

New Shoes

Last night, we went to buy a pair of new shoes for our baby.

Looks cute eh. It fits her just nice. It has been rather hard to find shoes for our baby as she has very long feet (like her father's).

Let's hope that this pair of shoes can last her at least one month before she outgrows them. If she outgrows them, then she will have to go "shoeless" for at least a few months until she can wear the bigger shoes meant for 1-year old kids.

Monday, September 3, 2007


Two weeks ago, I went to this place called MUS Grill and Lounge, located at the 3rd Exchange near the 3rd Mile roundabout with my husband, our baby and a bunch of friends.

It has a very nice setting; dim, cosy and elegant in a style of its own.

This is the bar.

We had Western food there. Unfortunately, due to the dim lighting, I could not capture any nice photos of the food we ate. The food was just OK though. Not bad but nothing out of the ordinary.

After my camera ran out of battery, I managed to capture this shot with my handphone camera.

My little brat, up to some mischief...